Tonight I did one of the hardest things I have ever done. I had to make the decision to put my dog Merlin to sleep. He was 11, would have been 12 on Sept 30. I have had him his whole life and loved him like he was my child. He was in respiratory distress and the vet said he was severely anemic and had a mass in his stomach. I petted him and told him he was a good old man and told him how much I loved him as I watched him stop breathing. Everything I love I an destined to lose, I just never expected to lose him so fast. A week ago he was barking at the other dogs to keep them in line, patrolling the house and yard, and acting like himself. He had lost weight but I thought he didn’t like the new food so I made him hamburger and rice with chicken broth and when he wouldn’t eat that I knew something was wrong. I really don’t know how much more pain I can take. I’m sitting here looking at the lease papers trying to decide if I should sign them or if it’s even worth it. I just don’t know if any of this is worth it anymore. What kind of life is a life filled with nothing but pain and loss….
I will always love you my angel.
