So, it’s been a while. I haven’t been posting because I could practically copy and paste the same post for every day. I’m in counseling twice a week and my medication hasn’t changed but neither has my state of mind. I just have this hollowness that I can’t explain to anyone in a way that they understand. The only time I don’t feel it is when I’m filled with fear. It’s almost like part of my soul, my very essence is gone. I’m trying to find something that will help fill the void but as of yet all I’ve come across have been temporary distractions. I have been taking cake decorating classes every Thursday to help me get out and around people and while I’m getting good at the decorating, my social anxieties aren’t lessening at all. That pretty much leads to every day being the same. The only times I leave my house are for dr appointments or if I have to go shopping. The counseling is new, so maybe that will be the key to me finally finding some sort of closure or healing and will allow me to start living a happy and productive life again.
