Hi. I am sorry I have not posted anything new lately but most days it is all I can do to brush my teeth. I went to the doctor today and they upped all of my meds and added Xanax for my anxiety being so intense. Most of the time I wonder why I am even trying; the only reason I had to get better is gone. I didn’t think it was possible for a person to cry so many tears but that’s all I do. Everything good inside of me feels dead and the sadness is so overwhelming sometimes that it scares me. The one thing in the world I cared about is gone and it has destroyed me losing him. I just want things to go back to the way they were a year ago.I would give anything to wake up just one morning and actually feel joy or gratitude for my life. But that is gone and all that is left is fear, sadness, loneliness, and this unbearable sense of hopelessness. I need something to distract me from my thoughts so I will find some information to post this week and get the site back on track. I promise.
