March 4th, 2009

Hi. I am sorry I have not posted anything new lately but most days it is all I can do to brush my teeth. I went to the doctor today and they upped all of my meds and added Xanax for my anxiety being so intense. Most of the time I wonder why I am even trying; the only reason I had to get better is gone. I didn’t think it was possible for a person to cry so many tears but that’s all I do. Everything good inside of me feels dead and the sadness is so overwhelming sometimes that it scares me. The one thing in the world I cared about is gone and it has destroyed me losing him. I just want things to go back to the way they were a year ago.I would give anything to wake up just one morning and actually feel joy or gratitude for my life. But that is gone and all that is left is fear, sadness, loneliness, and this unbearable sense of hopelessness. I need something to distract me from my thoughts so I will find some information to post this week and get the site back on track. I promise.

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January 25th, 2009

I have posted a few articles on tips for controlling stress lately and I hope they have been helpful. I wanted to post something about what I do to help with my stress levels. I have found a few things that seem to be working very well for me.

Meditation

I find that attempting to meditate to handle stress can be frustrating to me because I can’t always focus, so this only really works if I can incorporate it into a scheduled time every day. I focus on positive thoughts for about 15 minutes in the morning and the evening in an effort to train myself to think this way and while it makes a difference in my overall mood, it doesn’t seem to help when things happen unexpectedly.

Exercise

I unfortunately do not enjoy working out so I do little things to get myself moving. I have found that if I take my dogs for a long walk instead of a quick one I feel better. I’m not a morning person so this generally happens in the evening but it helps me unwind and go to sleep. The only downfall is that my Jack Russell, Athos, comes home wound up and ready to play. He seems to react to the walk as a sort of activity appetizer. Haha. Also things like turning on the radio and dancing around while I clean make a difference. I might look like an idiot but at least I am doing something to make the chores I hate more fun and it really motivtes me to actually get moving instead of lying around getting more depressed.

Gardening

My biggest stress relievers have come from a couple very unexpected places. I received a Chia Terra Cotta Gourmet Herb Gardenfor Christmas and it has been the best thing for my stress, so much so that I bought another one and an AeroGarden Garden Kitwith flowers. There is something very calming and fulfilling about seeing these plants thriving due to my constant attention. I water, feed, trim, and monitor them religiously and it feels like my stress levels shrink every time they grow a little. I am thinking about getting some houseplants and possibly even a bonsai tree since this seems to be very therapeutic for me. I understand now why so many people garden. I have a tiny backyard that is mostly concreted and have 5 dogs so a big vegetable garden isn’t very practical but if you have the space I would recommend giving it a try. If not, try one of these inside gardens; you might be shocked at the sense of accomplishment you will have and the effect that will have on your depression and anxiety.

Animals

Another thing I take great joy in is my pets. As I said I have five dogs; Kenya (Black Lab), Merlin (Tibetan Lhasa Apso), Athos (Jack Russell/Maltese Mix), Hope (Maltese), and Zoe (Chihuahua). Last night D bought me a baby Angora Teddy Bear Hamster and I think her name is going to be Dulce Valentin (this translates to Sweet Valentine). Animals are a great stress releiver. There is nothing better than a dog that loves you unconditionally running up to you, tail wagging, just thrilled to see you after a bad day; or a good one for that matter. They have a sense of when you are sick or upset and their entire purpose in life is to make you happy. I can be so stressed I am in tears and when one of my pups crawls into my lap and cuddles up to me I instantly feel my heart lift a little. There are days that the only thing that can make me smile is watching them run and play.

Writing

This is a good outlet for anyone. Write it down, get it out of your head, and come back later and read it. I have always written. To me seeing things in black and white puts them in a completely different perspective. The good doesn’t feel real and the bad seems so much worse until I pour it all out on paper and read it. For me there is just something about the flow of words on a page, as opposed to the swirling chaos in my head, that makes me feel connected to the experiences I am writing about.

What I am trying to say is that we all react to different things in life. The articles I post are suggestions, mostly to show that there are things you can do to take control of your life. Not everything will work for everybody. Try different things and find what will work for you. It’s all about finding the joy in your life and using that to combat the negative feelings before you become overwhelmed by them. It’s your life and you can take control.

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December 10th, 2008

A little something to make you start your day with a smile. :)

World Mental Health Day (October 10), is a day for global mental health education, awareness and advocacy. It was first celebrated in 1992 at the initiative of the World Federation for Mental Health, a global mental health organization with members and contacts in more than 150 countries.

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December 4th, 2008

This article focuses on the way blogging can be used to help deal with our current financial crisis but journaling has always been a therapeutic way of dealing with one’s thoughts, fears, and emotions. The only difference is now we do it on the computer and generally for all to see. I know I started this site as a sort of coping mechanism and in the hope that maybe someone else would find some comfort. And while I do put a lot out there, I still keep a written journal of things that are to painful or personal to be posted for anyone who stumbles across my site. I have always written and it is a terrific way to evaluate the situations in your life. When you write something in the heat of the moment it makes so much sense but then when you go back and read it later you realize how out of whack your thought process actually was. Also, sometimes for me seeing it in black and white on paper helps me finally accept the reality of a situation. I guess writing it makes it permanent somehow. I also have managed to embarrass myself pretty majorly by publicly blogging about situations that should have been kept to myself or after a night of heavy emotional drinking. Always a very bad idea. On a different site I have a blog titled friends shouldn’t let friends blog drunk, just keep this in mind when you are posting for the world to read. At any rate, blogging and journaling can be very helpful for dealing with everyday life and a fun way to express yourself.

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Dec 4, 2008

The headline in the Los Angeles Times said it all: “Charities Can’t Keep Up with Deepening Poverty.”

America is facing a vicious charity Catch-22: The harsher the downturn, the more people in need of help but the fewer stepping up with donations. “As resources vanish,” wrote the Times, “the threads of the nation’s extensive social safety nets are fraying, leaving single mothers, elderly shut-ins and others ever more vulnerable.”

For months, we’ve been inundated with the raw data of the economic meltdown: unemployment figures, foreclosure numbers, massive bailout stats. At The Huffington Post, we want to do more to put a human face on the suffering: the recently laid off, the newly homeless, the students unable to afford college. And who better to tell their stories than the people themselves?

How is the downturn affecting you and your family? Have you lost your job? Your home? Are you seeing “For Sale” signs on your street? Are more businesses in your town going under? How are you making ends meet? What are you hearing from your friends, your neighbors, your co-workers? Even if you still have your job and your home, and the ability to send your kids to college, how has the deep economic recession affected your outlook, your mood, your spending habits? If you work for a charity or a food bank - what are you seeing?

Blogging about them and your feelings - including your anger, your fears, your hopes - is a great way to cope with the many personal, social and professional dislocations that the hard times are producing.

Losing your job (or even fearing that you might) can make you feel powerless. But at the same time you are looking for work - or learning a new skill - you can take up blogging. It doesn’t require anyone’s permission; there is no application process. You just need blogging software (some of the best is free) and the will to express yourself.

Blogging is all about connecting to others. The bond between blogger and reader creates an intimacy that is a much-needed corrective to the isolation that hard times bring. I’m always amazed by the things I learn from commenters I’ve never met but feel that I know. And I’m equally amazed by the things I keep discovering about myself in the course of writing and clarifying what’s important to me.

Andrew Sullivan fleshes this experience out in a terrific essay in The Atlantic called “Why I Blog.” “Alone in front of a computer, at any moment, are two people: a blogger and a reader,” he writes. “The proximity is palpable, the moment human - whatever authority a blogger has is derived not from the institution he works for but from the humanness he conveys. This is writing with emotion not just under but always breaking through the surface. It renders a writer and a reader not just connected but linked in a visceral, personal way. The only term that really describes this is friendship. And it is a relatively new thing to write for thousands and thousands of friends.”

It’s not therapy, but it’s the same principle - and a lot cheaper (depending on your co-pay). The blogger-reader connection can have practical consequences as well. You can get suggestions on anything and everything - from a job opening to finding a place to volunteer to help others (and help put your problems in perspective). As Mr. Sullivan writes, “A good blog is your own private Wikipedia.”

Blogging is clearly not the answer, but it’s a wonderful survival tool. A way to connect to others, a way to stay on top of how others are coping, a way to reach out, a way to stay sane.

There has already been a lot written about the similarities between the current downturn and the Great Depression. But one way today’s crisis is fundamentally different is the Internet. With its immediacy and transparency, and the instant debate over policy it provides, the Internet will allow citizens to feel more engaged in government than ever before. And blogging will also make a difference on the personal front as well.

This recession will be blogged. Join us.”

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November 16th, 2008

Deciding on a mental health professional is confusing and challenging. For most, by the time they contact someone they have exhausted all their other options for symptom relief and emotional support. People do not make major purchases without first doing their research and the same should be true when looking for mental health treatment. Here are some tips to help you make the best decision for you.

Always follow your instincts. If you Doctor/Therapist makes you uncomfortable, acknowledge this. It is important to find someone you can trust and feel comfortable sharing your thoughts and feelings with. A therapist should never pass judgement on you for what you are confiding. They should always treat you with compassion, respect, and acceptance. Your provider should never belittle or make fun of you. The two of you can laugh together about something, but you should never feel as though you are being laughed at.  This will create an enviroment where you will be able to be open and confront issues you might not be comfortable discussing with anyone else.

Most importantly, your provider should never touch you in a sexual manner. Any contact that makes you uneasy should be pointed out immediately. This is not to say that a provider should never have any physical contact with a patient; a reassuring sqeeze of your shoulder, holding your hand during a hard session, or hugging you as you leave are acceptable as long as it does not make you feel uncomfortable. The provider should understand and respect boundries, both yours personally and those implied by the nature of the provider/patient relationship. Fondling, sitting on the Therapist’s lap, kissing, or sex of any type is always completely inappropriate.

There are certain rights that all patients have. You have the right to ask any questions related to your treatment. This includes knowing what diagnosis the Therapist is assigning you and what is being filed through your insurance claims. You also have the right to look at the records being kept by your provider regarding your treatment. You may request a copy of these records, but be aware that there may be a fee for copying them. This important to keep track of as insurance companies are famous for using a “preexisting condition” as a reason for denial. You may also refuse to answer any questions. The therapy is to help you but this has to happen at a rate that you are comfortable with. You should never feel pressured into answering questions on subjects that you are not ready to discuss. Do understand, however, that you will have to be willing to face some hard truths about yourself and your life and to do this you will at some point probably have to talk about things that are very difficult for you. This is why the trust issue is so very important with any Doctor or Therapist.

The provider should be able to give you the estimated length of time you will need treatment.This will not be an ironclad timeframe; no Therapist should ever give a guaranteed recovery date. Treatment is different for everyone and how you respond is not something the provider will be able to predict. There is no set formula, this is not a two week course of antibiotics that will erase all symptoms. Some people will begin to notice changes within a few sessions and others will take months or even years. Be prepared to commit to the process and do whatever is neccessary to feel better and you will get the most out of your treatment. If you go in half-hearted and refuse to embrace the process you will be wasting both your time and that of the provider.

You wouldn’t go to a doctor who was not licensed and the same should be true of your mental health provider. Licenses can include a psychologist (PhD), psychiatrist (MD), licensed professional counselor (LPC), licensed social worker (LCSW), or licensed mental health counselor (LMHC). These professionals are required to take a test and are supervised for a specific number of hours providing therapy before they can even take these tests. Seeking help from someone who does not know what they are doing will only create more problems for you.

Often when you feel you don’t want to go to therapy is when you need to go the most. This tends to happen when you are avoiding confronting or dealing with a painful issue. Therapy is hard work and sometimes can be a emotionally painful and draining process. During the first sessions, it is not uncommon to feel worse before you begin feel better. You are dealing with issues and emotions that you might not have ever discussed before or maybe are not even conciously aware that you have. This is why people give up before the process has a chance to work. Think of it like pulling out a splinter; the splinter hurts and can become infected if not treated. Pulling it out can be a painful process in itsself but once it is out you feel so much better. Therapy works the same way. It takes a great deal of strength and courage to share your thoughts, feelings, and issues with a stranger, even a professional. The more open you are with yourself and your provider, the more effective the treatment will be.

The provider is bound under confidentiality laws to never share anything you say in therapy with another person. (Exceptions to this include if the provider feels you are suicidal, a threat to a child or elderly person, or if you might pose a threat to someone else’s life.) The provider should not be on the phone while you are in session or talk to friends or family, yours or theirs, about you without expressed consent from you to do so.

Always remember that no matter who you decide to talk with or what form of therapy you decide to try, that there is always hope. Healing can be a long and difficult process but in the end you will come out of it happier, healthier, and stronger.

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