Life Inside Panic

Hi all. I’m sorry it has been a little while but things have been insane. I hope you all had a good holiday. I actually had a very nice Christmas. My family drew names and we were only supposed to buy for the person we drew but I was the only person who followed that rule. I halfway wonder if they might have come up with it to make me feel better about being broke but it didn’t. I feel so guilty about not being able to buy gifts for my loved ones. I drew my grandma and she seemed to ginuinely like what I gave her; so that brightened my mood a little. I spent the whole day feeling bad that D was home alone. He has no family and no true friends so there was no one for him to spend the day with. Part of me wanted to come home so he wouldn’t have to be alone but I also didn’t want to give up another day with my family for him. So I stayed and it was a nice day. I got a lot of nice gifts including a book I have been meaning to buy for a while. The Heroin Diaries: A Year in the Life of a Shattered Rock Starby Nikki Sixx. I had wanted to read it after finishing and being so impressed by The Dirt: Confessions of the World’s Most Notorious Rock Bandby Motley Crue. So far it is phenomenal and I strongly recommend it. It is a year of journal entries by him at the height of his fame, addiction, and depression with commentary from people who were there with him at the time. It’s very raw and honest. You should really check out both of these if you have any interest in biographies, Motley Crue, rock music, books on addiction, or if you’re just looking for a very good read. I couldn’t put The Dirt down and ended up reading the whole thing in one night.

So, I have to re-post about this book. I had originally written about it a couple weeks ago but in the process of redoing the site I lost all of my posts.

The Feeling Good Handbookwas recommended to me by my therapist after my depression became very severe. The book forces you to reexamine your thought process through a series of explanations and exercises. I, personally, didn’t put a lot of stock in self-help books before this but now I am changing my mind. I have found it very helpful in starting to understand and control my negative thoughts. I highly recommend this to anyone having trouble with anxiety or depression. Give it a look and see what you think then comment to let others know if it was helpful for you as well.