I’m pretty stressed right now; my stomach is all knotted up and I can’t seem to calm down. I haven’t talked to D all weekend, with the exception of a few exchanged sentences Saturday night. I hate this. When there is so much distance between two people, communicating everyday is a must. Trust is a very hard thing and in this situation it’s almost impossible. I keep telling myself that he loves me and wants me so everything is fine, but if he can go days without talking to me and be ok with that then he can’t feel the same as I do. My biggest fear is that in the time before I get there someone else will find their way into his life. I know that if he feels enough for me then I have nothing to worry about but December is a long time away and so much can happen between now and then. I know that I’m completely set on this. He’s all I want, all I’ve ever wanted but even I have moments of doubt. If I can have doubts then I know he’s having them and what if he gives in to them? I just want to hear from him so I know everything is ok.
